Hi

Sorry I haven't been posting because I was stuck in paradise if you know what I mean. We where at my step dad's lake house for too long. Now we just got back but, I have to leave for the USA early tomorrow to visit my grandparents. I haven't checked my weight but I feel lighter so I know that's a good sign. I hope my grandparents have a computer. I just hope. Sorry for the short post.

Stopped fast- lost a total of 8 pounds in about 5 days

Today I am going to my step dad's beach house (can't wait, ugh...), and I am on a all veggie diet. In order to not gain the weight back I decided to only eat 300 calories per day as well. I kind of see results, but barley. My step dad asked me if I lost a pound or two and I said no I lost almost 10 and he looked at me, very confused and said "really??" and walked away, he didn't even wait for an answer. I wanted to hit him so bad for that. It really pissed me off! He shouldn't really say much because he is fat too, like 250 pounds!

Anyways, I am going to do 2 hours of walking per day, I have my Ipod so it will be easy. I'm almost in the 160's. I'm excited. won't be back home not until Monday.

p.s. Does anyone know what happened to Alice in Hungerland? Her blog is gone...

Day 4-178.5lbs

I am only 178.5lbs, once again 1/2 pound gone. It's almost 10 at night and all day I didn't eat except lettuce with lemon. I'm hoping that if I include exercise I will lose more weight. I guess after a while weight loss does slow down. As long as I walk everywhere, I will be good (because I hate exercising!).  Yesterday and today I didn't get any headaches or any other side effect. So I'm happy, I don't even feel hungry right now.

Around 5 a.m. is when my step dad's family is coming. Ugh. They are the types to come into a quiet house and let everybody know they are their by being really loud so after this I'm going straight to sleep. Good night!

sorry for the small post.

Day 3- 179lbs

I saw I only lost 1/2 a pound this morning. I know it's from me drinking a lot of cranberry juices yesterday. I could have lost about 3-5 pounds if I didn't do that. Now today I am going to drink only pure bottle water. I hope I loose at least 3 or 4 pounds tomorrow in time for my family vacation. I am going to my step-grandpa's beach house either thursday or friday. I don't want to go but my mom is making me. Every one in his family are very tall, thin and beautiful. He has 3 perfect daughters. His youngest daughter, is 23 and she models in Hong Kong, that's how beautiful their family is. And everyone is going to be up their with their handsome boyfriends that look like models while my family, all of them over 200 pounds, will be outcast taking up space, including me. I don't know why my mom married my step dad. Well he's fat too.

My plan is to just stay indoors while they run around the beach, thin and beautiful, with their handsome boyfriends and just continue fasting, I'll have to eat plane salad for the family dinner and hopefully it doesn't make me gain weight. God, kill me now.

I bet you guys never have to fear this during the summer time.

Day 2-179.5lbs

Hi everyone. I woke up weak and very sweaty and got on the scale and read 179.5 lbs. I lost about 6 pounds over night? Is that possible. Yes. My scale shows it. I'm very happy and excited, my first day and I lost 5.5 pounds. Normally someone will lose that in two to three weeks. I'm so ready now. I can do this.

America, here I come! Beautiful and THIN!

Also I want to put that you guys are very nice people!

Day 1-185lbs

Well here I am. Tired and weak. Ready to begin my journey. So many americans and UK women inspire me to make a blog, finally. Finally. FINALLY! Why did I wait so long to begin this new start, why? School will be starting soon, September 2. 6 weeks, 42 days. I need this, it's going to be my final year in high school and I need to be thin. I have never been thin. I last time I was it was 3rd grade. I was just 165lbs last month so what happened? now a 185 standing at 5 feet 4.5 inches. People tell me I have a beautiful face and I should just face model. Fuck them, all of them. my so called friend that hasn't called me in weeks since school got out. hell with them all. It's just me now and me only. Me on this journey to perfection, and I wont let my mind, body, or anybody stop me till i am thin. I don't care what it takes or how dangerous it is, as long as I am thin. I'm going to fly to America to visit my grandparents on August 11. My grandparents are exercise freaks, said by my mom (or mum, don't know how it's spelled. seen it diffrently) and I lied to them and told them I lost a bunch of weight but I didnt, I actually gained weight so now I'm going to try to lose as much weight as soon as possible by the 11. give me luck. wish me luck.
I am currently fasting, this is day 1 for me and i have a headache and am hungry, hopefully I will see results soon.

I love the beauty that amerians and UK women give, most women here are either very ugly or very beautiful, nothing in between. I happen to be in betwen though. The only one. My face is beautiful but my body is very ugly.